taco bell

the other day I bought a Sunday paper and they had these sweet coupons in them for taco bell. basically I got a supreme taco, burrito, and nachos for only $2.99!! life couldn't get any better. but then I tried to eat that all in one sitting and the rest of the night I was extremely full. who knew that you could feel full for like 6 hours!?! oh and I want to be evonka trump... I don't even know if that is how you spell her name, but she is so hardcore. so amazing and successful! I will be her and eat cheap taco bell everyday! hmmm what a perfect life
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yummy

so excited for the taste of Chicago. it is going to be quite splendid. I can't believe that summer is have way over. it has been going by so fast. the petunia festival is going to be lots of fun. Hanging with family... running around... oohhhh and fireworks!! i love fireworks! well got to run!
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all roads lead to woodfeild

so I had quite a brilliant time today. jen and I went shopping at woodfeild mall. well first we went to ikea... which pretty much is my new favorite store. It was a little overwhelming though. I think the next time I go I need to have like a reason... like buying bathroom rugs or looking for a new bed or picking out a new plant. It was just a massive amount of material in that store. then we went over to woodfeild mall... which was full as usual. I really love that store because it just has so much going on. I love crowds. but sense last night I only got like 3 hours of sleep I kept needing to eat and get coffee. I think I have a sleepy headache so I really need to go to bed. but it was a really great day and hanging out with jen now that she is married is actually way fun... I thought things would be way different, but it was cool to see that so much is the same and if things have changed it is totally for the better. way to go God... doing the right thing at the right time all over again!!!

Surpised by Joy....HA!

wow it has been more than a year sense i used this sucker.... wow twice in one day that i typed that word.... crazy??? I think yes!! so I'm reading this book... surprised by joy by c.s. lewis. I think I want to change the title to "surprised by vocabulary". Or maybe "surprised by sentence structure" or even length would work! wow that man is some kind of writer... I would say well winded, but one needs no air to right... so maybe I should say well inked. sorry I'm a dork. basically I spend the majority of my time looking up the words he is using because I have no idea what on earth he is talking about. when I read c.s. lewis I fully understand the meaning of mental fatigue. I have to use all my brain power to focus on what he is saying. the majority of the time I have to re-read pages of his book just to understand what I just read!! Man if Charlotte have to spin a web for c.s. lewis I swear she wouldn't have time to spin a web word for him because it would be so long and she would probably misspell it because the world that would fully describe him no one on the entire planted has heard about it. Also.... so are all these authors they he sites reading.... I've never heard of them, heck I can't even read there names!! wow, it has been quite an forehead wrinkling last couple of days. Surprised by Joy... Ha! But really he has made some good comments that I agree with. Points about solitude, things and activities he perused to gain some connection to the joy he fully wanted to taste. Its been good for me... in the long run. On a side note. This is the end of the beginning. My sarah will be the last of my friends to depart. then... well I don't know what I will do. I miss faith, rebecca, rachel, carrie, jen, and so many others that have left this summer.... sarah is just the cherry on top of that. Blahhh. but I decided to dedicate this time of friendlessness to God. Focus on him... for he after all is my ultimate friend!! I love God... he rocks! well tootles!!

true colors shining through

so sorry about not writing in forever... but I must tell the truth: Facebook has me hooked. I just get all wrapped up in checking it, that I neglected to think of my blog...whoops! Anyways why is it that when you are given the perfect opertunity to do something great you just stand there?? This past week at work we were all standing around working on our blood product and one of my fellow co-works had a family member come in and donate blood. This perticular family member wanted to see what "happened" to the blood after donation so we let them come back to the lab and check things out. Then right in the middle of processing the blood, who should begin to have reactions to the donation, but this donor standing right in the lab. Everyone else springs to action and help hold, ask question, give air, talk pulse, call 911... and what does yours truely do... thats right- I just stood there and took the whole thing in. I eventually when out to the front of the building and let the EMT guys in... but come on.... I'm going to be graduating with a degree in health care and I do what... hold the door for the EMT. I don't think I could feel any lower then after that point. I mean... really! Anyways this whole flippin' degree has me confussed and I don't think I like it and I just want to do something else and I don't know what that is and it's really driving me crazy and I just have been so.... AHHHHH the last couple of weeks. I mean I love my life soooooo much, but I really am not intested in my "job's" at all. I am so excited to get off of work and to not have to think about working in a hospital. I find myself being most happy when I think that I can do something different then work in the health care feild. I don't know what I would do, but it's got to be better then how I feel about working as a CLS. I know that I am good at what I do and that if I try hard enough I could really excel, but do I want to do this with the rest of my life? I've poured so much of my heart and soul into just finishing this and now that I am done I kind of just want to be like "see I knew I could do it and I did it!". But after I say that... that's it. I have little desire to step into the world that I have created for myself and it scares me to death that I am not listen to God enough to really understand what it is that I am suppose to be doing. I just want to do the right thing. It also gets me so frustrated that whenever I start worrying about what the future is going to bring I then start stressing that I still have not met a guy or even a potential for a guy... WHY CAN'T I JUST FIND SOMEONE TO LOVE AND SOMEONE WHO LOVES ME! okay it is totally late and I am starting to spase out and I think that I might be PMSing so I'm going to sigh off and know that I've put all this out their and it's nothing to stress over and God is in control. Blahhhhhh it really does feel good to have just sat here for the last 15 min and say what has been lingering and simmering in the back of my mind for like the last 4 weeks! ahhhh sooo good. (but really I do want to fall in love... why do I hate that I want that so bad. is it really that crazy for me to write... or am I just so scared of being hurt by something that I want so desperately bad, that I'm pretending I don't want it so I can pretend not to feel crushed that I don't have anyone wanting to love me! Okay I can stop moping duhhhh I totally have God I can rely on HIM! Easier said then done!

To cut through and earing

i'm really going to try and get some new pictures put up on this blog. I mean it would make it so much more interesting and that picture of me is like 2 years old by now. sheesh! So funny story from this week at clinicals I was up drawing a lady and she said that she had her baby on the side of the road. I mean you see it all the time in ER and all those other hospital show... but it is quite another thing when you see the people in real life and all. I thought i was pretty interesting. I guess her other two babies had to be induced so she was sitting there thing... I have all the time in the world... oops I guess not. Dad had to deliever the baby right there in front of the car dealership. Craziness!
On another note: how freaking long does it take for a cartilage ear pericing to heal? and an even better question is how do you get the earing out of your ear. A couple night ago my pericing of now 8 weeks was driving me bonkers and I decided to just take the sucker out. I mean come on enough is enough. But then, believe it or not, I can't get the earing out. I think I might need to ask claires how to remove it otherwise I guess I'll just have to stand it. The good thing is after my little "freak- out fit", I clean the ear and the swelling and pain has gone down... but still not all gone. So now I just sit here in paused wonder thinking "what is sharp enough to cut through and earing???!!!"

o'hare

yeah! today Faith, Rachel, and I drove to chicago and I drop Rach off at the O'hare airport. It was so cool to do that... I felt like such a grown up. I mean we pulled up, got out, hugged each other. Wished Rach a safe flight and then we were on our way back. I'd say faith and I did quite an amazing job navigating ourselves back home. We did cut a few people off... I apologize to all those chicagians that had to put up with that. But I really did enjoy that process and it was super good for me because it erased a lot of fears that I had about driving into the city. It was fine and I would totally do it again. Yeah Chicago and O'hare... Rachel I hope you have an amazing time in Florida and on your cruise....vaction hard! Tina